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Soft and weak as you look, Ansel, who would've thought you've got all this going on?

I can't tell if that's supposed to be a compliment.

Of course it is.

Hah, alright, then.

But it sounds like you actually do want to go back home?

...I guess I do.

Going around the world with Rhodes Island is a great way to broaden your horizons, but no matter what happens, Rim Billiton is still my home.

I miss the giant smoke stacks, the din of machinery, the miners and their work chants, the noisy streets...

Maybe someday I'll leave Rhodes and head back home to practice medicine.

Oh...

What is it?

Nothing. I was just thinking about how even though I say I don't miss Rim Billiton at all, I don't know if maybe I would go back.

Ansel, do you know where my codename comes from?

April is like, a month? Fourth one on the calendar?

Yes, but also no. It's the name of a song about spring.

I never felt like I liked Rim Billiton. I don't like any of the stuff you've been talking about.

My memories of home are all dark and dusty, I feel like I can barely breathe when I remember them.

Life wasn't easy even before I got Oripathy.

I had to show up to the office every day, and then go out with the team whenever they had a job.

I made some money, but it was real hard out there. A ten day trip was common, and sometimes we'd even be gone for a month or two.

And it's not like there was much to do when we didn't have a job either.

The bands I liked were in other countries and cosmetics would only show up in magazines.

With all the factories polluting the air, I had to put so much into my skin care routine.

Those factories, and even just the streets were so noisy they'd wake me up in the middle of the night.

And would you believe my apartment was so lousy I'd run out of water right in the middle of a shower sometimes?

Phew, those don't sound like good memories...

But, when I really think about it, there were good times too.

It was a ruthless, cutthroat company for sure, but they took care of me for years. I don't know what the upper management was like, but I remember when I went to the office to talk about my benefits, the people there definitely weren't happy about what they had to do.

My neighbors had their issues, but they still helped me. Old Man Perot upstairs was always so mean to everyone, but he started giving me food after he found out I was sick.

Oh, but Old Mrs. Lolo downstairs was the worst. She spat whenever she saw me.

The supermarket down there had all kinds of good stuff on rotation too. Speaking of, I don't think I've ever seen meatballs like that anywhere else. Those were super tasty.

And of course, the time I spent with mom and dad when I was little was real happy.

I know what's going on here, I'm just getting a strong hit of nostalgia.

Hahaha, maybe.

But still, I think we can never really abandon our roots.

When I came to Rhodes Island, I learned how vast our world is, and all the wonderful ways one can live a life.

I've thought about trying another life for myself, like becoming a Vanguard Operator or a caster. Or going into civilian work.

And I could just choose a new life for myself. No one would stop me.

But in the end, I decided to keep on practicing medicine.

I was born in Rim Billiton, and I grew up among the workers. Unless I suddenly woke up with amnesia someday, there's no way I could deny my past.

Speaking of amnesia, did I hear that the Doctor has it?

Oh, yes. That's no secret.

Going with what you said earlier, do you think the Doctor could choose a new life?

...I think that would be pretty hard.

I don't know the Doctor's past, but Amiya, Dr. Kal'tsit, and lots of others do.

I think a lot of the things the Doctor does are not exactly done by choice.

So I guess that means even if you do lose your memory, you're still stuck with your past.

Yeah. How did we get here from talking about hometowns?

Anyway, your hometown is definitely the most important part of your past.

Right. But it's not really the town itself that matters, it's the mark left on you by the time you spent there.

I could've given up that mark, but I decided to hold onto it.

What about you?

Me...?

Hm...

I dunno. I never thought about it before.

Doesn't matter. We're still young. We've got a lot of time to figure that one out.

But I guess I didn't leave Rim Billiton to get away from that life, at least.

If I could've kept on living there, I probably would've. I just didn't have a choice.

I suffered a lot after I became Infected, yeah, but I can't keep on hating people, and saying stuff like I hate Rim Billiton.

That's totally normal. When someone gets Infected, his whole worldview doesn't turn on a dime.

You'll have a better understanding after you live at Rhodes Island for a while. At least for now, we can keep talking about home, and our past.

Right, well, I guess I have to admit I'm the accepting type, huh?

I probably won't say I like Rim Billiton, but I can say I like Iron Carrot City.

I'll never forget how, whenever I was feeling down, I'd head up to the roof of my apartment building.

It wasn't that tall. There were other, taller ones around.

And I'd feel fenced in, trapped by those tall buildings around me. Like the piece of sky straight up above me was all I could see.

But it was also kind of reassuring, because I don't need a lot of space. I don't like having too many choices. A little coziness is just right for me.

I'd look around and see what the neighbors were doing. Sometimes I'd see something fun, sometimes I wouldn't. But it didn't matter.

Then I'd lie down in the middle of the rooftop, put on my headphones, and play my favorite song: 'April.' I'd think about whatever, and take a nice nap.

By the time I woke up, most of my worries would be gone.

Sounds great.

It was. I wish I could find a place like that here, but the Rhodes Island deck is just too wide and open for me.

I'll point you towards an operator named Kroos. She's got a lot of experience finding places to slack off.

Really? That'd be great! I'll go find her in a bit!

But after all that, I do kinda feel like I want to go back home.

It's your fault.

Hah, well, I'm sorry.

I'll set that aside for now. I'm still new here. I can't go taking a vacation right away.

Oh, I know!

Is that Messenger you hired to send your letter gone yet?

Probably not. I think he's here until tomorrow.

Great, I'll go get him!

Mr. Messenger! You're going to Rim Billiton, right?

Sure am, little Cautus. Do you want to send something?

April's fine. But it's not a letter, I was hoping you could do something for me?

What?

When you're in Rim Billiton, could you please go to the top of a tall building and take a picture of the view up there?

Huh? Kind of a weird request.

...But it doesn't sound hard. I could probably do that.

Oh, thank you so much!

My hometown, my past... turns out I care more than I thought I did.

Well, anyway, what really matters now is meeting that Kroos girl. Finding a nice place to nap is a much more realistic goal than going home!

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Answer.

The shadow in the dark.